Blogging can wait...

Yea how ironic that me as a writer find a challenge to get on here and blog...maybe its the business of music that captures more of my attention as of late or the desire to understand life unfolding around me so that I may transcribe these words as beautiful specimens to be prodded and examined by naked eyes. This journey has been one of learning, growing and changing in matters of seconds. I have discovered that the more I learn the less I still seem to know I'm able to adapt to being comfortable with the rules that have been set before me. Never-the-less I am working hard although you may not be able to read every drop of anticipation about my full album release 'Pulse' I am breathing it, living it, sleeping (trying to at least), and eating it. It is everything that I am and nothing less. Everyone is blogging now even Oprah so its like I have to work even harder. People yearn to know every ounce of your day and what our those blood, sweat, and tears so they too can be apart of this journey that is wholeheartedly yours alone. I remember though that I too had idols and that I was the biggest Michael Jackson fan then again who wasn't. Thiller sold 25 million albums around the world its hard to miss why MJ was hot! You wanted him to take off the shades, take off the glove, wonder why he was sleeping in a oxygen tank, what was his obsession with Diana Ross or Elizabeth Taylor. We critiqued him on every single thing that he did to get a clear picture of who was this genius. Geniuses are strange and weird and this is the very nature of their essence to embody what they believe. This unknown that we try to capture and explain cannot be put into words. I can type and tell you of my day to day, but my mind you cannot hold, examine, experiment on to better understand who I am. This is a journey you will have to take in scattered fragments of historic truths, living legacies, facts, and he/she said versions to get some idea of what its like being BPS. I don't feel like writing everyday, sometimes I don't feel like sharing, sometimes I need me time which seems to be few and far between these days. And yes it doesn't make sense why would you try to get into a career that everybody seems to be ubiquitously watching and listening to your every whim and notion. Dreams are the fountain of youth. They are purposeful passions that lie deep within ones soul that even with a glimmer of hope will shine. They cannot be denied even in death. They are the mirrors to heaven, they transform lives and beings in all states of minds and planes. I am thinking. That's what I am doing. I am a writer who is thinking. 20 steps ahead. 10 years down the line. Pathways into future lives. This is what is happening all while trying to decipher the music business today and how my brand will fit into this jagged puzzle. This imperfect piece that just doesn't seem to fit. My style will be bitten, mimicked, teased, and ridiculed. It will be perfect in its imperfections. Sometimes I have been away too long, but its not that I'm not grinding. Its not that the forces of the universe or not working towards aligning my passions into symmetry. This is where I'm suppose to be this is what I'm suppose to do.

Through dreamy eyes I see clearly...

They say if your not tired then your not working hard enough, but damn I love my sleep, lol. I have been putting the finishing touches on my album "Pulse" that has taken about a year now which is good considering I'm balling on a budget. I am so ready to wrap this present up and send it out to you all. I was on the radio yesterday which was cool, actually "Ready for the World" was the song the DJ wanted to play because that was his favorite song off the EP-Watch Out. I am blessed with all the things that have been coming my way, but I'm tired sometimes I wonder if I'm doing enough or is my lethargy taking over. I keep going and going and going to make sure I am making moves and moving forward. It seems at times such a slow process and yet I feel a lot is being done with respects to my project. It will be such a breath of fresh air to have it completed and out into the world wide web and beyond. I have been working more on the stage show to make sure its exceptional so I can strengthen
all the loose ends and be on point. The dancers are finally coming together and it looks like its going to be a performance of a lifetime (not one, but the entire BPS brand). I am trying to imagine what it will be like, the success I desire when it unfolds, all my dreams coming true and yet I find it difficult to fathom the butterfly effect. Its unfortunate that most decisions have to be stalled because of money. Most dreams have to wait because of time. I see this as all apart of the journey to success it will be that much sweeter after the long, arduous, challenging summit to the top of the mountain. Although it seems cumbersome being in complete control, I don't know if it could happen another way, I love learning from every opportunity that arises. The peaks and valleys are the same as in life so this road is nothing new its the attitude you carry with you along the way that dictates the interpretation of the experiences. So sleepy or not I see clearly the fork in the road.....I know which way to go....

Starving to Stardom

Grinding- the process by which we hustle to make our living, day to day, by any means necessary.

I have a tendency to say I'm grinding a lot these days it becomes this mantra that I say over and over that it almost feels like I'm just lazy to find another word to express how I feel. What I have noticed is that I am focused, relentless, and determined to achieve my goals. This feeling is satisfying within itself. Having had many doubts, fears, and worries tarnish days that I should have been enjoying. It has taken me my own way to understand what the grind truly is. I have had many wise men tell me of the cliches that we so often hear about so that one can make it in this world (New York City). Cliches exist for a reason because they are truths that cannot be denied. Success to me is the combination of talent, hard work, consistency, and positive outlook. You build confidence based on knowing that you are well versed in your shit. Its not that you are not open and flexible its having the knowledge base to do what you need to get done so that you are ready for the world. It is a slow road to success because if it came easy you wouldn't be able to maintain the pressures of the goal that you had set for yourself. It's true I want things my way and fast, but they rarely seem to come that way. Patience has finally find a home in me so that I may continue the work I need to do to reach the peaks I am destined to summit. Yes, I am grinding in New York City to survive, to live, to reach my dreams, and this is not a new story, just a different version one that is personal and prominent. You have heard it all before the tireless success story on True Hollywood story of actors, singers and other entertainers who have actually been in the business a very long time and there is so much effort they put in you didn't know about some of your favorite celebrities. This is also true of me the work that I have really put in will one day be recognized as the truth of my starving to stardom. When I say that I am grinding, know that I am truly busting my ass to make it and nothing can stop me now.

Inauguration into the Game!!!

It has been sometime since I have taken to digest all that has already happen in the New Year. Obama's Inauguration was such a present, I'll remember that the most regarding history: proud, stellar, and remarkable are a few words that come to mind. I am just thankful to be apart of it all. I feel like I need to be doing so much more, I have been selfish lately focusing on my dreams, and I want to start giving back more to those in need. It seems he speaks a lot to each of us about doing our part and I certainly plan on doing mine. I realize its easy to get lost in your grind just trying to reach the pinnacle of your dreams and desires to bring yourself some satisfaction. I was able to be around so many inspiring people when it happened. Drinking champagne celebrating CHANGE. This is what this is all about for me as well.... my inauguration into the game of entertainment: living, breathing, eating, and sleeping music.

I am planning on performing across the country in major cities for the release of my album "Pulse" in March. "Watch Out"-EP by BPS available now on itunes. With the conjunction of each release in every city I will perform at a charity event, the first confirmed event is the Special Olympics in Miami April 3rd. If anyone out there knows of an event that I could perform at or should be apart of let me know. I also will be hosting a German Celebrity Access Hollywood Show which is owned by www.RTL.com. I'll let you know when it airs if you have digital cable or Internet you should be able to see it. It all feels so wonderful how it seems to be coming together and I have to thank all those who have purchased the album and helped spread the word its all appreciated. With all my blessings I continue to reflect on the simple pleasures in life and I'm mindful of greater success come more responsibility. Peace and blessings.

Official Release of Watch Out-EP by BPS on itunes!!!!

I have waited for this day for some time now and I'm so happy that it is finally here, my new project, Watch Out-EP by BPS is now available on itunes. Many have asked when will it be available and today is the day! I wrote all the songs, I am the lead singer, and helped arranged all the tracks. Will Taylor is the producer who built the beats. This is an exciting time before the release of the full length album Pulse due out in March 2009. I would love for you all to help spread the word and support the album. I'm an independent artist who has fully funded my entire project. I have been in NYC 12 years and I'm in a place where I see my dreams manifest. I am thankful and blessed to all those who have contributed over the years to my growth: Ed Roc, Tony Silver, Debra Bonner, Efrem Chanel, JSM audio engineering school, and The Hit Factory. Peace and blessings to you all may all your dreams come true! Link below....

http://www.apple.com/itunes/affiliates/download/?artistName=BPS+%28Beats+Per+Second%29&thumbnailUrl=http%3A%2F%2Fa1.phobos.apple.com%2Fus%2Fr1000%2F031%2FMusic%2Ff6%2F94%2F3c%2Fmzi.jbqdthmv.100x100-75.jpg&itmsUrl=itms%3A%2F%2Fax.itunes.apple.com%2FWebObjects%2FMZStore.woa%2Fwa%2FviewAlbum%3Fid%3D300072268%26s%3D143441%26ign-mscache%3D1&albumName=Watch+Out+-+EP

Resolution

It has been a minute I know since I have taken the time to write about what is going on with me. It was a conscious decision to wait till after the holidays so I could just spend time with my family and take it easy. Something I cannot seem to do in NYC at all no matter how hard I try. I still was thinking about my music and my career, but it doesn't really have the same brain wrenching effect as a migraine headache one gets from over-analyzing trying to figure it all out. Well now that we are off and running I am pleased to announce the continued growth of a man well in his uprising of self-reliance and independence solely on the soul (ooh I love that line you should re-read that). I have long ago given up the need to create resolutions when everyday I create goals, write to do list, and constantly challenge myself to perform better. It never fails though that someone will ask you what are your resolutions as if being perfect in my imperfections isn't enough I acquiesce to the demands of those curious to learn the inner workings of who I really am. I am telling everybody that the only goal I have for this year is to survive completely off my music and I have some good ideas how I am going to make that happen. This month of January 2009 will debut the release of my EP-Watch Out. I will be getting promotional and marketing help from Taylor Media, fans, and friends. This is an exhilarating turn of events sense there seems to be so much melancholy in the air from the economy, unemployment, wars, financial woes, and just plain down-and-out from the previous year which seemed to be heavy handed on the negative for those hard-working surviving their day to day lives. It never ceases to amaze me people who are so caught up with what other people are doing, negative and mean-spirited. This is why I choose to travel alone most of the time cause you get tired of hearing people complain and just get down on you as if you don't have enough to think about. The myriad of folks who have been so blue about the state of the music business and discouraging me to follow my dreams, unhappiness breads contempt, as if it was their decision anyway. The strange part of this is most of these people actually work in the business of music and who are they anyway, certainly not artist, but its almost as if people forget the role of the artist and what we are here for in the first place. Isn't are job to inspire? Are we not the ones who change moods, Alchemist who make gold, and wordsmiths who turn tragedy into triumph? It just makes me laugh, thank god, because I haven't forgotten not after twelve years the journey of 10,000 miles begins with one step. That there is always a light at the end of a tunnel and that with the pain comes joy in the morning. Yes, this optimism is not false hope, but the cliches that prove perennial because their significance is clear. That with the bad comes the good. The world was created on opposites. Opposing forces to maintain the harmony of the planet and what may seem like the worst thing in the world is actually the way its suppose to be. As an observer and student of life its hard not to wonder, to desire to know, and to just understand somethings because I mean that's what are minds were created for, right? Or are we just running around in circles, letting time pass by, and then question where all the time went. Instead of enjoying life, we were busy contemplating the unimaginable where are minds cannot seem to venture to because our job is not to think about the unexplainable, but to create appreciate, and paint pictures our souls see. How could you possibly fathom the dynamics of life when we haven't reach our full potential as human beings trapped in society's maze in survival of the fittest trying to make as much money as we can to buy the biggest house, fastest car, and have the most beautiful lover based all on superficial ideals of what we should be doing...all is lost on those who have forgotten the artist...interpreters of existence and creators of not just art, but the very essence of the god in us. So I resolute not to be dedicated on holidaze like New Year's cause actually my birthday is my new year, but learn to reach the greatest part inside all of us. The beauty within. The soul. Create. And remember to breathe.

Back to REHAB!!!

Last night I was in the East Village again and it was at a video release party for Jake Lefco, Core Rythym, and Hired Gun...it was cool always good to get out and see artist do their thing, good energy, positive vibes, and of course, youtubing it, lol...I really enjoyed Lefco's video the most...it was simple and creative...kool vibes and just good ole feeling of that underground hip hop scene that is undeniable...I have a performance tomorrow for our company Xmas party and I can't wait to do that, cause its always fun performing in front of people who only see you one way and I get to show my artist side...it will be unbelievable, cause I know I'm going to act up and push limits just to get buck wild and enjoy my 5 minutes of fame on the smaller stage of life...Its all love I hope you all are gearing up for the holidaze and enjoy them...anyone with food you would like to donate to my hungry belly let me know...until next time PEACE and BLESSINGS....